JOURNEY INTO THE DIVINE WILL

From The Writings of Servant of God Luisa Piccarreta

Vol. 17 – September 2, 1924

How much harm distrust causes in the soul.

I was feeling very oppressed, but all abandoned in the arms of Jesus, and I prayed Him to have compassion on me. But while I was doing this, I felt I was loosing consciousness and I saw a little girl, weak, pale, and all engrossed in deep melancholy, coming out from within me. And blessed Jesus, going toward her, took her in His arms and, moved to pity, pressed her to His Heart; and with His hands He touched her forehead, marking her eyes, her lips, her breast, and all the members of the little girl, with signs of the cross. And as He was doing this, she would regain strength, acquire color and stir herself from that state of melancholy. And Jesus, seeing that the little girl was reacquiring strength, would clasp her more tightly to Himself, to strengthen her more, and He said to her: “Poor little one, what a state you are in! But do not fear, your Jesus will make you come out of this state.”

While this was happening, I thought to myself: ‘Who is this little girl who came out of me and whom Jesus loves so much?’ And my sweet Jesus told me: “My daughter, this little girl is your soul, and I love her so much that I cannot tolerate seeing you so melancholic and weak. This is why I have come – to infuse in you new life and new vigor.” On hearing this, crying, I said to Him: ‘My Love and my Life, Jesus, how I fear that You might leave me! How shall I go on without You? How shall I be able to live? To what a deplorable state will my poor soul be reduced? What a harrowing pain is the thought that You might leave me! A pain that lacerates me, takes peace away from me and puts hell into my heart! Jesus, have pity, compassion, mercy on me, a little child! I have no one; if You leave me, everything is over for me!’ And Jesus, resuming His speaking, added: “My daughter, calm yourself, do not fear; your Jesus does not leave you. I am jealous of your trust, and I do not want you to even slightly distrust Me.

See, I love so much that souls be with Me in full trust, that many times I hide some defect or imperfection of theirs, or some lack of correspondence to my grace, so as not to give them any occasion to not be with Me in full trust. In fact, if the soul loses trust, she remains as though separated from Me and all huddled within herself; she places herself at due distance from Me, and remains paralyzed in her surge of love, and therefore paralyzed in sacrificing herself for Me. Oh! how much harm does distrust cause! It can be said that it is like the spring frost that blocks the vegetation of the plants; and many times, if it is strong, frost can even make them die. In the same way, distrust blocks the development of virtues, and puts freezing cold into the most ardent love. Oh! how many times, because of lack of trust, my designs and the greatest sanctities are blocked. This is why I tolerate some defects rather than distrust – because those can never be so harmful. And besides, how can I leave you, if I have worked so much in your soul? Take a look at how much I had to work.” And while saying this, He showed a sumptuous and great palace, worked by the hands of Jesus in the depth of my soul. And then He resumed His speaking: “My daughter, how can I leave you? Take a look at how many rooms – they are almost innumerable; as many knowledges, effects, values and qualities as I have made known to you in my Will, so many rooms have I formed in you in which to deposit all those goods. There is nothing left but to add some more varieties of some more different colors in order to portray more rare beauties of my Supreme Will, to give more prominence and honor to my work. And you fear that I might leave such a great crafting of mine? It costs Me too much. There is my Will involved in it; and where my Will is, there is life – life not subject to death. And your fear is nothing but a little bit of distrust on your part. Therefore, trust Me, and we will get on well, and I will accomplish the work of my Will.”

Scripture Meditation- ⁵ Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
    and do not rely on your own insight.
⁶ In all your ways acknowledge him,
    and he will make straight your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Prayer Reflection- O Jesus how can we not love You and trust You! Let us always trust in You that You would accomplish the work of Your Will in our souls!